The Amnesiac Omega Who Reels Me In Every Day – Chapter 83

Gouging Out the Gland

“I Don’t Want to Continue Anymore”

Jiang Jinyi knew that Jiang Youwan was powerful—no matter where she ran, Youwan would find her and drag her back.

            

Nowhere to hide.

But Fu Mingyue was different. The Fu Family was one of the top prominent households in Luo City—though still a step below the Jiang Family, they were not someone Jiang Youwan could casually offend.

Fu-jiejie’s place was the only place she could go right now.

            

Jiang Jinyi suddenly felt a pang of bitterness.

Her life should never have been like this—if only Jiang Youwan had never appeared.

Never mind. Thinking about this now was useless.

            

Fu Mingyue quickly drove to the villa and sent a message telling her to come out.

Jiang Jinyi replied with a “Mm” and got up to leave.

Just then, a soft murmur came from the woman on the bed. Jiang Jinyi’s heart lurched, and she immediately looked up.

            

Jiang Youwan shifted her body, brow furrowing with closed eyes. Her arm moved, her body sliding toward the other side of the bed, reaching for someone, wanting to hold someone.

Right now she wanted to find her Alpha, wanted to hold her Alpha, whimpering softly, “Xiao Jin, mm, Xiao Jin…”

Seeing her like this, Jiang Jinyi truly felt guilty—it gave her the illusion that Jiang Youwan knew she was leaving and was trying to make her stay.

            

Jiang Jinyi only felt a dull ache in her heart.

She ached for her.

No Alpha could fail to ache for their own Omega.

            

After being completely marked, an Omega would be especially dependent on their Alpha for a full month, needing a certain concentration of the Alpha’s pheromones nearby to feel secure and comfortable. If the Alpha was too far away and the pheromone concentration dropped too low for too long, she would become distressed and uneasy.

Like this, Jiang Youwan would wake from her dreams and search everywhere for her Alpha.

Jiang Jinyi didn’t want her to wake so soon.

            

Jiang Jinyi went to close all the windows and began releasing her pheromones heavily. She chose a pillow saturated with her own scent and tucked it into Jiang Youwan’s arms, soothing her carefully until the Omega had gained enough sense of security, her expression relaxed, and she sank into a sweet dream.

The pheromones that lingered would be enough for her to sleep soundly through the night.

Within three minutes, Jiang Jinyi opened the door and gently closed it behind her. Fu Mingyue’s car was parked right at the villa entrance. She opened the door, got in, and the car drove away.

            

Without a single hesitation.

This time, she had truly escaped this villa.

Once again escaping the home she had lived in for eighteen years—and still because of Jiang Youwan.

            

This time, she was truly reluctant to leave, but the desire to escape was far, far stronger than the reluctance.

“Xiao Jin, long time no see.” The gentle, soft voice beside her ear made Jiang Jinyi turn her head. Fu Mingyue sat beside her, wearing an ink-colored qipao¹ draped with a mink stole, legs crossed—very elegant.

Just as elegant as Jiang Jinyi remembered.

            

Even more mature, even more captivating, exuding an air of noble refinement from her very bones.

She was smiling faintly at her. Jiang Jinyi managed to force a smile: “Fu-jiejie, long time no see.”

“Xiao Jin has grown up, but… why do you have such a strong…?” Fu Mingyue frowned slightly, puzzled. “Your scent…”

            

Fu Mingyue was an Alpha and could detect pheromones. From the moment Jiang Jinyi got in the car, she had sensed something was wrong.

Xiao Jin’s pheromones had changed. Though still blue hyacinth, still as cloying and sweet as when she was little, they were now tainted with a very strong, dominant Omega pheromone.

Fu Mingyue had smelled this dominant Omega pheromone five years ago, and the memory was deeply etched in her mind.

            

She knew whose it was.

For one person’s pheromones to be this saturated with another’s scent, there was only one possibility—she had been marked, or she had marked someone else.

Fu Mingyue frowned, hesitating. “Xiao Jin, you…”

            

Jiang Jinyi knew what Fu Mingyue was wondering about and explained, “Fu-jiejie, I underwent secondary differentiation into an Alpha.”

Alpha.

Though she had somewhat expected it, hearing Jiang Jinyi say it herself still left Fu Mingyue deeply surprised.

            

Xiao Jin had actually differentiated into an Alpha… Back then, she truly couldn’t find a girl more Omega-like or softer than Xiao Jin.

Still reeling from the shock, Jiang Jinyi added in a low voice, “I completely marked Jiang Youwan…”

Fu Mingyue’s feelings were complicated. It took her a while before she said, “No wonder you’re covered in her scent. Xiao Jin, how could you… with her?”

            

How could you be with her—be involved with your mother’s killer?

That was the full question Fu Mingyue meant to ask, and Jiang Jinyi knew it.

“I didn’t want this either…” No one wanted to be covered in their enemy’s scent.

            

Jiang Jinyi clenched her fists. She turned to look out the window. The car was driving fast, the scenery flashing by.

Jiang Youwan’s pheromones grew fainter and fainter in the wind.

She could no longer smell Jiang Youwan’s pheromones.

            

The car had been driving for less than a minute when her heartbeat quickened, racing with a kind of manic excitement, an impulse to jump out the window.

It was hard to suppress.

She knew this was the instinct of complete marking at work.

            

After just one minute, she already couldn’t resist the urge to go back to her.

Jiang Jinyi bit her lip, fighting against the desire, head lowered, voice trembling: “I shouldn’t have marked her. I can’t have marked her…”

Fu Mingyue’s expression was complicated.

            

She had heard the general situation from Xu An—this complete marking was most likely forced by that woman Jiang Youwan.

Seeing Jiang Jinyi’s agonized state now, she couldn’t help but ache for her. She reached up and ruffled her hair. “Xiao Jin, I know. This definitely wasn’t your fault. You definitely didn’t do this willingly.”

All the emotions Jiang Jinyi had bottled up over these days—she hadn’t vented to anyone, hadn’t been comforted by anyone. Receiving Fu Mingyue’s comfort, her feelings surged forth all at once. She turned to look at Fu Mingyue, eyes full of helplessness and pain.

            

“Fu-jiejie, I don’t want to keep going on like this…”

Fu Mingyue could see how much she was hurting, and thought sorrowfully—how had that innocent, happy girl turned into this?

Jiang Jinyi felt as miserable as an addict going through withdrawal, choking out, “I hate myself for actually wanting to go back to her. Fu-jiejie, knock me out…”

            

Fu Mingyue’s heart ached for her. Enduring the possessive pheromones of Jiang Youwan that clung to her, she pulled Jiang Jinyi into her embrace, comforting her the way she had when she was little.

Jiang Jinyi tried desperately to distract herself from the urge to go back to Jiang Youwan, her voice thick with tears: “I’m really so miserable. I’m really in so much pain…”

“I don’t want to keep going like this. I never want to see her again…”

            

Fu Mingyue held her tight, but Jiang Jinyi’s reactions only grew more intense the farther the car drove. This was the first time Fu Mingyue understood just how powerful the effects of complete marking could be.

She instructed the driver up front to go to a pharmacy and bought some powerful sedatives to inject into Jiang Jinyi. She didn’t know if they would work, but Jiang Jinyi’s rigid body relaxed a little. Fu Mingyue said softly, “It’s okay. Fu-jiejie is taking you away.”

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After being brought back to the Fu Residence by Fu Mingyue, Jiang Jinyi went online and searched for many ways to control herself. She even posted a question, only to be cursed out by numerous Omega and Alpha netizens who scolded her for lacking Alpha virtue²—abandoning an Omega right after marking her. That Omega she marked was truly the unluckiest soul alive.

            

Jiang Jinyi felt wronged and stopped looking at the post.

While the sedatives were still in effect, she frantically searched for solutions, bought many medications, and took them. The drugs had a slight effect—her body wasn’t in as much agony. She locked herself in her room and watched the sky outside gradually brighten.

She was thinking that Jiang Youwan should be waking up soon.

            

After Jiang Youwan woke up… she didn’t dare imagine. She forced herself not to think about it, but still couldn’t stop the sorrow.

How devastated she must be. How helpless she must feel. She would go mad, wouldn’t she?

She was clearly a sinner—why was she worrying about her?

            

If she didn’t leave, she would truly go mad.

Only now, far from her, did Jiang Jinyi feel she wasn’t bound by these various things, wasn’t condemned by her own conscience.

She could finally catch her breath.

            

Jiang Youwan had indeed already woken up.

She opened her eyes sleepily, still half-drowsy, letting out a few soft murmurs. But soon she felt that the person in her arms wasn’t Jiang Jinyi. In an instant, she was fully awake, sitting up. The blanket slid off her body, revealing her naked body covered in kiss marks—all Jiang Jinyi’s handiwork from last night.

She had just been reminiscing, thinking she would get up and be intimate with her Alpha again, but now she was frantically looking around, searching for any trace of Jiang Jinyi.

            

“Xiao Jin…” she called out, panicked and aggrieved. Discovering Jiang Jinyi wasn’t in the room, she immediately threw off the covers, scooped up the nightgown discarded on the floor last night, threw it on, and ran to find her.

“Xiao Jin, Xiao Jin…” She was truly panicked, because she could clearly sense that the blue hyacinth scent in the air was noticeably fainter than the past two days.

She ran downstairs to look, fantasizing that Xiao Jin was just downstairs, or that Xiao Jin was starting to slowly accept her—like before, cooking for her.

            

But no. Jiang Jinyi wasn’t in the living room, nor in the kitchen.

Jiang Youwan bit her lip, eyes reddening, and ran back upstairs, searching through every other room without finding any trace of Jiang Jinyi.

Only when she came back did she realize that her own bedroom had the highest concentration of pheromones.

            

Unwilling to give up, she grabbed her phone and called Jiang Jinyi. She told herself that Jiang Jinyi must have just gone out shopping, or gone out for some fun… Jiang Jinyi wouldn’t abandon her. How could Jiang Jinyi bear to abandon her?

Last night, Jiang Jinyi had willingly made love to her, even tenderly called her jiejie.

She should be gradually accepting her…

            

But the blue hyacinth scent fading bit by bit around her, and the cold, empty air, were cruelly reminding Jiang Youwan—your Xiao Jin has run away. Your Xiao Jin has run away again.

She left after tenderly coaxing you to sleep last night.

Back then, you were still happily thinking, Xiao Jin is so gentle.

            

Jiang Youwan’s eyes were very red, brimming with tears that she couldn’t control, slipping down her cheeks. She tilted her head back and wiped them away with her hand—so heartbroken, so helpless.

This was the first time she had been like this. The first time she was this fragile, this devastated.

Her Alpha had abandoned her. No Omega could endure such a grievance.

            

How could Xiao Jin’s heart be so cruel… It wasn’t that she didn’t know how dependent she was on her now, how much she needed her, that she simply couldn’t leave her.

No. She couldn’t leave.

Changing her clothes, she got into her sports car. Perhaps having prepared for the worst, she had long since taken precautions—she opened Jiang Jinyi’s location tracker and saw that she was at the Fu Residence. Jiang Youwan’s eyes instantly filled with jealous fury.

            

Fu Mingyue… It was Fu Mingyue who had spirited Xiao Jin away.

Because she had just been marked, her jealousy and rage were magnified infinitely. In less than half an hour, she had parked her car at the gates of the Fu Residence. She keenly detected the blue hyacinth scent here and knew Xiao Jin was inside. Her heartbeat quickened—she desperately wanted to see her.

Like a stranded fish desperate for water to breathe and survive, she desperately craved her Alpha’s pheromones.

            

She was determined to drag Jiang Jinyi back, tie her up, lock her away, so she could never run again!

The person who came out to meet her was none other than Fu Mingyue.

Fu Mingyue smiled elegantly at her. “President Jiang comes charging into my home—what do you want?”

            

Jiang Youwan curled her lips with a smile. “My girlfriend has been visiting President Fu’s home for so long. I’ve come to take her home.”

Though Jiang Youwan was somewhat disheveled right now, hair mussed, clothes disordered, she was no less striking than Fu Mingyue—she had her own unique allure.

The word “girlfriend” made Fu Mingyue’s brow furrow. Catching sight of the dark red hickeys on her neck, she felt a surge of anger.

            

“Xiao Jin said she never wants to see you again. Why would she go back with you?”

Jiang Youwan’s eyes darkened. That remark made the air pressure around her drop several degrees.

“Fu Mingyue, are you really going to oppose me?” Jiang Youwan threatened her, her entire demeanor abnormal.

            

Deeply pathological—the kind of pathology that inspired fear, as if she could do anything at any moment, consequences be damned.

Fu Mingyue was no pushover either. She said angrily, “Xiao Jin doesn’t want to see you, do you understand? You’ve made her miserable. She’s on the verge of breaking down—do you know that?”

Jiang Youwan: “Our business doesn’t require your interference.”

            

Jiang Youwan perhaps knew.

But she couldn’t let go.

Fu Mingyue wasn’t exaggerating. Jiang Jinyi really was on the verge of breaking down.

            

Jiang Jinyi knew Jiang Youwan had come—that she had come to drag her back. She had expected it. Youwan must have installed some more advanced tracking system on her. But the moment she arrived, every medication Jiang Jinyi had just taken lost all effect.

Separated for one night, the effects were even stronger. She wanted to see her even more, found it even harder to endure, felt even more impulsive.

No matter how much medication she forced down, it was impossible to suppress.

            

Jiang Youwan just stood at the gate, waiting. She knew Jiang Jinyi would come out.

Because they had already completed the marking. This was only the third day of complete marking—the time when the bond was at its strongest, when they were most inseparable.

Xiao Jin couldn’t control her own instincts.

            

She loved her. She couldn’t leave her. It had become instinct.

Jiang Youwan was very confident. Sure enough, not long after, within ten-odd minutes, she saw a figure in the distance walking toward her.

Walking faster and faster, then stopping about seven or eight meters away—stopping beside Fu Mingyue.

            

Jiang Youwan’s reddened eyes curved into a smile as she coaxed gently, “Xiao Jin, come back to jiejie’s side. Jiejie can pretend you just came to visit an old friend. We can pretend nothing ever happened.”

But Jiang Jinyi shook her head.

She looked at Jiang Youwan in despair, her voice trembling: “Jiang Youwan, I don’t want to keep going on like this…”

            

“I really never thought things would turn out like this…”

She truly hadn’t expected that Jiang Youwan would actually use complete marking to trap her.

Complete marking was something so important, so solemn, and so joyous—it shouldn’t involve one party being forced.

            

All of Jiang Jinyi’s beautiful fantasies about complete marking had been shattered.

After that tiny bit of intoxicating pleasure, there was nothing but pain.

But even knowing it was pain, just because Jiang Youwan was standing there, she couldn’t stop herself from coming to her, wanting to hug her, wanting to kiss her.

            

“I can accept all the truths you’ve told me, but I truly cannot accept being with you.”

She couldn’t accept herself like this, so…

Jiang Jinyi raised the small knife she had hidden behind her back and, before anyone could react, plunged it into the gland on her own nape and gouged it out with a brutal twist.

            

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The author has something to say:

Don’t worry, it will heal. It won’t really be ruined.

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