The Amnesiac Omega Who Reels Me In Every Day – Chapter 57
by Little PandaBeing Girlfriend
Sister loves you, loves you so much.
On the day after her twenty-fourth birthday, before the surgery, Jiang Jinyi actually came to the hospital room and brought her breakfast.
The breakfast she brought was a small cake.
She said, “Eat something sweet. Then you won’t be as scared during the surgery later, and it won’t hurt.”
That was the first time Jiang Youwan had ever eaten cake — and it was fed to her by Jiang Jinyi herself.
Actually, Jiang Youwan could have eaten it herself, but Jiang Jinyi wouldn’t have it. She said there were lots of cute little animals made of cream on the cake, and since Jiang Youwan couldn’t see, she’d ruin them — so she had to be the one to scoop the little animals out whole and feed them to her to eat.
“This is this young lady’s first time feeding anyone, you’d better remember it.” That was what Jiang Jinyi said with characteristic pride, barely concealing how much she cared.
Who could have known that later on, the first bite of any cake Jiang Jinyi ate would always be fed to her by Jiang Youwan.
Shortly after finishing the cake, Jiang Youwan was wheeled into the operating room. Jiang Jinyi waited in the private lounge. At first she didn’t know what kind of surgery Jiang Youwan was having — she just felt inexplicably anxious — so she asked Jiang Youwan’s doctor, who told her that the surgery carried risks. Very high risks. Nearly a fifty percent chance of failure. If it failed, Jiang Youwan would never see light again for the rest of her life.
Jiang Jinyi was stunned, then heartbroken, filled with an unspeakable sadness.
What kind of person was Jiang Youwan, not telling her something so important, acting as though it were nothing at all? But underneath, she must have been scared and sad too.
Jiang Jinyi became countless times more nervous than before. She couldn’t sit still and ran outside, standing at the operating room doors staring at the sign, feeling deeply unsettled.
Deeply unsettled.
But there was nothing she could do. She could only pray.
During the agonizing wait, Jiang Jinyi heard there was a temple near the hospital. The temple was bustling with incense and worshippers, and many people went there to pray for blessings.
Jiang Jinyi was frantic with anxiety, restless, unable to sit still.
She had never believed in ghosts, gods, or Buddhas — but somehow, without realizing it, she found herself walking into the temple.
The monk at the temple was almost uncanny — he could see what weighed on her heart. He had her bow to the Buddha, then gave her a strand of white jade Buddha beads.
“May the Buddha protect you.”
Consciousness faded in and out before gradually returning. It seemed to take Jiang Youwan a very long time. She still couldn’t open her eyes — they were wrapped in thick gauze. After waking, she stared blankly for a long while, then noticed pheromones in the air. She moved her hand and found someone lying slumped against the edge of her bed. From the pheromones, she knew it was Jiang Jinyi.
Jiang Jinyi’s breathing was even — she was fast asleep.
How did she fall asleep slumped over the bed like that? Jiang Youwan thought. She must have stayed with her for a long time.
Jiang Youwan hesitated for a long moment before raising her hand and resting it on top of Jiang Jinyi’s fluffy head. She couldn’t resist gently rubbing twice. Jiang Jinyi murmured contentedly at the touch, and so Jiang Youwan couldn’t bring herself to pull her hand away — she kept it there for a long, long time.
Jiang Youwan didn’t know what time it was — day or night — until a doctor came in to report on her condition. The surgery had gone smoothly. She would be able to open her eyes and see the world in about a week.
The doctor’s arrival woke Jiang Jinyi from her deep sleep. She opened her eyes, and the first thing she did was ask how she was feeling, whether it hurt a lot. Jiang Youwan said, “It doesn’t hurt.”
Jiang Jinyi pulled out the Buddha beads she had gotten from the temple earlier. She took Jiang Youwan’s arm and, without a word, slipped them onto her wrist. Jiang Youwan asked what it was. Jiang Jinyi said, “This is a protective charm I got from the Buddha. The monk said if you keep wearing it, you’ll be safe and sound, and your eyes will definitely get better.”
A protective charm.
Jiang Youwan felt an unnamed, wondrous emotion welling up in her heart. She wondered — how should she thank her?
What was wrong with her? Someone gives you a protective charm, and you want to give her everything you own in return.
“Something this precious — why didn’t Xiao Jin keep it for yourself?” Jiang Youwan thought that if these Buddha beads could truly protect a life, she would rather Jiang Jinyi keep them for herself.
Jiang Jinyi huffed and told her quietly, “A protective charm? I already have one. And these things only work for the person you pray for.”
“Hm?” Jiang Youwan seized on the implication. “Xiao Jin has a protective charm too?”
After she asked, Jiang Jinyi fell silent for a long time, pressing her lips together without a word. Thinking about being sick before made her feel wronged, and her voice grew small. “Actually, I was really sick once before too. Well, it wasn’t exactly an illness… I just stayed in the hospital for a long time.”
Jiang Youwan tensed, listening quietly.
Jiang Jinyi still seemed to be wrestling with whether she should tell Jiang Youwan about it. Her mother had told her many times to forget that incident and never tell anyone.
But Jiang Youwan was her jiejie — she wasn’t just anyone, right?
A jiejie definitely wasn’t just anyone!
Jiang Jinyi tried hard to remember, then said, “I think I was three years old. I was taken by bad people — kidnapped to a house. They said they were going to kill me. I was so scared. I remember… I remember there was an auntie later. She secretly hid me in a bathtub, and then… mm, I don’t remember the rest. Mom said I didn’t wake up for a long time. Mom cried — cried so hard. My body hurt all over, and I cried for a long time.”
Jiang Jinyi paused, about to say more, when Jiang Youwan suddenly cut in: “Do you remember what that auntie looked like?”
Jiang Jinyi tried to recall. “I don’t remember. I was only three — I wouldn’t have had that strong a memory.”
Jiang Youwan fell silent. Jiang Jinyi continued, “I stayed in the hospital for a long time back then. Mom kept telling me I was sick, and I thought I was sick too. I never wanted to be sick again in my life.”
“Mom went and got me a protective charm. She told me to always keep it in my schoolbag, and I’ve been safe and sound ever since.”
“That’s all I remember. I don’t have any impression of the rest — I was too little.”
After she finished, Jiang Jinyi leaned close to her ear and whispered, “This is a secret. Mom always told me not to tell anyone. You absolutely can’t let it slip. If you dare tell anyone, I’ll hate you.”
It took Jiang Youwan a long moment to come back to herself. She gave a soft “Mm.”
Jiang Jinyi smiled and leaned back, raising her voice a little. “So you’ll get better too. Don’t worry.”
Jiang Youwan’s expression was a bit stiff. Jiang Jinyi asked her curiously what was wrong, and only then did she force her thoughts back and curve her lips into a smile, saying warmly, “Thank you, Xiao Jin. I’m not worried anymore.”
…
A full week stuck in a hospital room, unable to see, with no entertainment — sounds boring, doesn’t it? Jiang Youwan didn’t find it boring, because Jiang Jinyi was there almost the entire day.
Once she’d let go of her grudge against Jiang Youwan, Jiang Jinyi became much more talkative. She watched cartoons in the hospital room until the whole place was filled with cartoon sounds and her running commentary on the villains and the heroes.
Jiang Jinyi would also bring her drawing board to the room, claiming she was painting the scenery outside the window, when she was actually sneaking drawings of Jiang Youwan.
…
The week passed quickly. When the doctor told Jiang Youwan she could open her eyes, Jiang Jinyi had once again fallen asleep on the sofa watching cartoons. The doctor woke her up, and she was still groggy, complaining that the doctor had interrupted her nap again.
The doctor knew exactly who Jiang Jinyi was — this hospital belonged to the Jiang Corporation, after all. She smiled and said to Jiang Jinyi, “Miss, Miss Youwan can open her eyes now. Would you like to help remove the gauze?”
“She — she can open her eyes now?”
“Yes, she can.” The doctor gave her a confirming answer.
Jiang Jinyi was still half-asleep. She shuffled over to Jiang Youwan’s side and confirmed with the doctor one more time — really, she could take the gauze off? The doctor said yes, so she carefully unwound the gauze, her heart pounding like a drum: “O-open your eyes and look at me.”
Jiang Youwan seemed unaccustomed to it. Her long lashes fluttered. After a long moment, she slowly opened her eyes.
Her gaze slowly focused, settling on a sweet, lovely face.
Jiang Youwan had imagined many times what Jiang Jinyi looked like, but none of it came close to a ten-thousandth of how adorable she was before her now.
The girl’s hair was a little mussed. Her skin was smooth as porcelain, lips red, teeth white, her nose bridge elegant and straight — beautiful and vivid.
A pair of peach-blossom eyes1 was staring at her blankly, lips parted, mumbling, “You’re so beautiful…”
In that moment, Jiang Youwan wanted nothing more than to devour her.
Back then she only dared to think it — thinking dark thoughts for countless days and nights. She never imagined that one day, she would actually get her wish.
She got her wish.
Here and now, Jiang Jinyi clung tightly around Jiang Youwan’s waist, her face buried shyly in the crook of her neck, occasionally calling out “jiejie,” occasionally whimpering softly. Jiang Youwan teased her for being as shy and clingy as a little kid.
What alpha cries after marking someone? Only you.
She teased with her words, but Jiang Youwan’s heart was full to bursting, relishing her dependence, relishing the tenderness of this moment.
Jiang Jinyi didn’t get angry or bristle at being teased. She was utterly docile, immersed in Jiang Youwan’s gentle embrace, unable to pull herself out — not wanting to pull herself out.
She had really marked her jiejie.
A space only the two of them shared. A secret only the two of them knew.
An overwhelming sense of the forbidden filled her heart, making it impossible to calm down. It took Jiang Jinyi a long time to lift her face from the crook of her neck. She looked at Jiang Youwan’s beautiful, flushed face. Youwan was still wearing that sexy nightgown, looking like a sated fox, a languid, seductive smile hooked in her eyes.
“Is Xiao Jin tired?” Jiang Youwan asked her weakly.
Jiang Jinyi’s face was faintly pink. She shook her head and said softly, “Not tired…”
Xu An said alphas aren’t allowed to say they’re tired — and besides, she really wasn’t tired.
“Sister is a little tired,” Jiang Youwan said lightly. “I didn’t sleep at all last night — I was up the whole time, looking forward to Xiao Jin celebrating my birthday.”
“Ah…” Jiang Jinyi felt a twinge of guilt. Then she thought of last night and remembered something. She sat up in a panic, looking for something — where was her gift? Where was the gift she was going to give Jiang Youwan?
Jiang Jinyi wanted to get out of bed to look, but Jiang Youwan caught her hand. “It’s in the cabinet.”
Jiang Jinyi opened the cabinet, and sure enough, the gift box was inside. She took it out. Jiang Youwan sat up as well. Jiang Jinyi earnestly presented the gift to her and said, “Jiejie, happy birthday.”
Jiang Youwan unhurriedly opened the box. Even though she had already seen it, she still put on the expression of seeing it for the first time, acting pleasantly surprised to make Jiang Jinyi happy.
Jiang Jinyi said proudly, “I went and bought a pearl oyster, then took the pearl out of its flesh, and set it in myself!”
She finished with a face full of pride, waiting to be praised.
“Our Xiao Jin’s gift is certainly not ordinary at all.” Jiang Youwan had her help put it on. Jiang Jinyi leaned close, carefully fastening it around her neck, her eyes curving into happy crescents. Jiang Youwan couldn’t help herself — she pinched her chin and kissed her again.
She got kissed again. Jiang Jinyi desperately wanted to kiss back, but she had a more important question than kissing right now — had she actually won over the girl she liked?
Right now, at this very moment — what was their relationship?
Did Jiang Youwan even like her?
Jiang Youwan saw her fidgeting, wanting to speak but unable to get the words out, and could see right through her in an instant. She felt both helpless and amused — she really couldn’t tell if Jinyi was being shy, too proud, or just plain cowardly.
Jiang Youwan smiled lazily. “The last step in winning over a girl. Didn’t Sister tell you — when you meet a girl you like, you have to seize the moment and make your move fast. You can’t dither around, or the girl you like will run off with someone else and you won’t even know.”
Jiang Jinyi remembered this. Jiang Youwan had said it to her before. At the time, she’d thought she’d never have someone she liked. She never expected to end up here with her jiejie.
Of course she knew the principle that you shouldn’t dither when you like someone. But why — why couldn’t Jiang Youwan be the one to seize the moment and make her move?
From childhood to now, she had always been the one receiving confessions. Jiang Jinyi had never confessed to anyone.
The Eldest Miss Jiang was far too proud. She figured she would never confess to anyone in her life.
She glanced up at Jiang Youwan and huffed, “Then — then aren’t you worried I might run off with someone else?”
The moment she said it, Jiang Jinyi immediately felt the oppressive weight of Jiang Youwan’s gaze. She felt guilty to death, looking away, not daring to meet her eyes at all.
“What did Xiao Jin say?” Jiang Youwan narrowed her fox-like eyes, gripping her chin to force eye contact. Jiang Jinyi didn’t dare resist, didn’t dare repeat it.
But she was also secretly delighted — Jiang Youwan’s reaction was so intense…
An omega who had been marked was extremely sensitive — not to mention Jiang Youwan was already intensely possessive by nature. She absolutely couldn’t stand hearing things like that. Through gritted teeth she asked, “Xiao Jin just did that to Sister, just bit Sister’s neck — and you say something like that? What are you trying to do? Hmm?”
Jiang Jinyi’s heart lurched. She hurriedly said, “I was just saying nonsense!”
“Just nonsense?” Jiang Youwan narrowed her eyes, looking thoroughly unconvinced. Jiang Jinyi also realized she was wrong — she had just marked her, how could she say something like that and hurt her feelings?
Actually, from the moment Jiang Youwan arrived at the Jiang family, she had been incredibly good to her — loving her, protecting her. Apart from being strict about matters of the heart, she indulged and spoiled her in every other way. Back then, Jinyi had wholeheartedly treated her as a jiejie, accepting her kindness as her due.
She was so wonderful — what was wrong with being the one to take the initiative for once?
Jiang Jinyi made up her mind and took a deep breath. Jiang Youwan expected something brave and solemn — but instead she just mumbled quietly, “I… I like you.”
“What?” Jiang Youwan’s tone turned instantly tender. She cupped her face, looking at her sweet features, her gaze soft to the extreme. In a half-commanding tone: “I didn’t hear you. Say it again.”
With things having gone this far, there was no path of retreat. Jiang Jinyi went all in and said earnestly, “I like you, jiejie — the kind of like where I want to be together with you. Not as jiejie and meimei, but as… as… as a couple!”
Jiang Jinyi’s eyes were a little wet, making her look even more tender. She was so nervous her lashes wouldn’t stop trembling, and her soft, sweet voice began to shake too: “Will you be my girlfriend?”
Be her girlfriend?
Jiang Youwan had dreamed this sentence more times than she could count. She had wanted to say yes countless times, only to wake up and find it dissolved into nothing.
Was she finally going to get her wish?
Countless voices in Jiang Youwan’s heart were screaming yes, say yes — her heart had already said yes. But a selfish desire surfaced to hear it a few more times. She played with her, teasing, not agreeing so quickly: “Why are you acting cute again? Do you think acting cute will get you a girlfriend?”
Jiang Youwan said this with her mouth, but in her heart she knew very well — an alpha like Xiao Jin, if she actually went out and acted cute asking someone to be her girlfriend, there probably weren’t many omegas who could refuse.
Truly — she wished she could chain her to her side.
When Jiang Jinyi saw she wasn’t saying yes, she felt wronged. Her eyes drooped and her tone grew even more cloying: “Will you or won’t you? Do you like me…”
So pitiful that it felt as though uttering a single word “no” would shatter her heart instantly.
“And if I didn’t like you, what then?” Jiang Youwan’s tone carried a smile.
Jiang Jinyi’s pupils dilated. She stared at her in shock — she never expected that answer. Her heart felt sour and hollow, and her voice turned fierce: “If — if you don’t like me! I’ll, I’ll never get close to you again!”
“I’ll hate you!”
Jiang Youwan couldn’t hold back a laugh. She cupped her face, pressing their foreheads together, staring into her pupils. Before her tears could fall, she said word by word: “Who threatens someone like that? You should say, ‘If you don’t like me, I’ll…'”
Jiang Jinyi’s tears stopped at once. She widened her eyes, staring blankly at Jiang Youwan, stammering, unable to speak. Why was Jiang Youwan so…
She always said things like that… Was this what an SSS-class omega was like?
How did she not know from the start that Jiang Youwan was this kind of person…
Jiang Youwan stopped teasing her. She gave her lips a light touch and spoke in a soft, gentle voice: “Sister doesn’t just like you. Sister loves you. Loves you, loves you so, so much. Do you understand?”
“Sister so badly wants to be Xiao Jin’s girlfriend, to make Xiao Jin belong to Sister alone.” Jiang Youwan said it word by word in an intensely intimate tone. Jiang Jinyi was drunk on her voice and couldn’t help tilting her head up to kiss her swollen lips.
Jiang Youwan, of course, indulged her, doted on her, let her take what she wanted, let her kiss however she wished.
As they kissed, Jiang Youwan wrapped her arms around Jiang Jinyi, holding her tightly, as if trying to fuse her into her very bones. But before long, Jiang Jinyi was the first to pull back, creating distance between them.
Jiang Youwan frowned. Jiang Jinyi’s face was flushed red. She shook her head to clear it and said in a hoarse voice, “You should rest now.”
She was worried about tiring her out.
Xiao Jin really didn’t understand SSS-class omegas at all.
Jiang Youwan’s hand suddenly pushed against Jiang Jinyi’s shoulder, looking down at her from above, her eyes filled with the certainty of having her: “That depends on your ability…”
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