On the Wedding Night, I Transmigrated to After the Divorce – Chapter 27

Cold Violence

She didn’t even want Honey

“You two really were clingy¹ back then. You were always showing off your relationship² on WeChat Moments.”

            

Yu Yan’s heart took a considerable hit. She had called Lu Yu to her room—Lu Yu had thought she was afraid of the thunder—but the moment she entered, Yu Yan grabbed her wrist in the darkness, that face pressing close as she demanded, “I dated Fu Yunqing?”

During this time, apart from when Yu Yan actively asked, Lu Yu rarely mentioned the past to her. Naturally, that included her relationship status with Fu Yunqing.

Yu Yan had indeed dated Fu Yunqing for real. It was probably sometime in the second half of 2022, shortly after they married. One night, Yu Yan called Lu Yu saying she thought she had genuinely fallen for Fu Yunqing.

            

Lu Yu hadn’t taken it seriously at all.

This person had been dramatic since childhood, constantly raving about someone being beautiful or cool, saying she liked this person or that person—liking one in the morning, another in the afternoon, yet another at night. She could like four, five, six people at once, sweet-talking each one, making them swoon, then refusing to take responsibility. Such a player³. Lu Yu had scoffed at it.

But that time, she seemed genuinely troubled, like it was real. Lu Yu asked, “Does Fu Yunqing like you then?” Yu Yan said of course she does—Fu-jiejie likes her very much.

            

Well, that settled it.

Lu Yu couldn’t really help either, so she said, “Figure it out yourself then.” Not long after, she received happy news from Yu Yan—Fu Yunqing had kissed her forcefully and wanted to give her a proper status.

After that, Yu Yan frequently showed off their relationship on WeChat Moments. They lived together, traveled together, watched the sea together, raised a cat together. Fu Yunqing picked Yu Yan up after class; Yu Yan waited for Fu Yunqing to get off work… Yu Yan’s first sports car was a gift from Fu Yunqing. When Yu Yan got in trouble at school and they called her parents, Fu Yunqing went. When Yu Yan had a car accident, Fu Yunqing was the most worried. Even from thousands of miles away, Lu Yu could see their relationship growing better by the day, Yu Yan growing happier by the day.

            

Everyone knew back then—Fu Yunqing really loved Yu Yan.

Like lanterns flickering in and out of the deep ocean, the very existence of all this was enough to feel surreal.

This was something Yu Yan couldn’t imagine. Based on her understanding of herself, she couldn’t imagine throwing herself wholeheartedly into a relationship with only one person. She couldn’t imagine her own state of mind when she loved someone enough to say “I want to be with her forever.”

            

The Yu Yan of this moment was still that flower butterfly⁴ flitting happily through a garden of blossoms, unable to empathize.

So… how did they break up?

Did Fu Yunqing really not want her anymore?

            

If Fu Yunqing loved her that much, how could she not want her?

Those words—some childish, some boastful—were interspersed with sincere late-night confessions. In them, Fu Yunqing’s care and concern for Yu Yan was meticulous. Yu Yan’s Weibo was all set to friends-only, and when Yu Yan clicked on the only mutual follow in that account, she found an account called “Unknown Cat Mommy Blogger.” The name was obviously Yu Yan’s idea—Fu Yunqing would never come up with something so childish.

The account didn’t have many posts. Occasionally during those two years, she would post some photos. The subjects were mostly Yu Yan or scenery from when they were together, usually without captions.

            

But she also posted a few text posts, after Yu Yan stopped updating—

September 2, 2024: 【She said she would never give Fu-jiejie the cold shoulder⁵. She didn’t keep a lot of her promises.】

October 6, 2024: 【She didn’t even want Honey.】

            

October 20, 2024: 【。】

After that, for an entire year, she never updated again.

She said she would never give Fu-jiejie the cold shoulder. She didn’t keep that promise.

            

She didn’t even want Honey.

So it wasn’t that Fu Yunqing abandoned her because of Yu Lan’s situation—it was that she dumped Fu Yunqing? Was that why Fu Yunqing was so cold to her now… Had Yu Yan gotten tired of her?

Yu Yan knew herself well. Claiming she’d learn a hundred dishes for Fu Yunqing—that was exactly the kind of thing she’d say when completely infatuated⁶.

            

But she also got bored easily, easily tired of a relationship. That was why she never wanted to define her relationships. She couldn’t take responsibility. Once she got bored, she’d give the cold shoulder, start avoiding things.

God…

What did that period mean? Did Fu Yunqing’s heart get completely broken, so she decided to end it for good?

            

But but but… if they loved each other that much, would she really get tired? Yu Yan was completely lost. Lu Yu sighed and said to her, “Maybe the situation was too complicated back then. Your mom sent Fu’s grandmother to the hospital. You felt guilty, felt too much pressure being with her, and it created distance.”

Was that it? Very possible. Yu Yan didn’t like bearing pressure.

“Last time you said—you said I ran off with another woman. Is that true or not?” Yu Yan remembered this and asked urgently.

            

“That’s not…” Lu Yu had just been joking back then, thinking Yu Yan would regain her memory in a couple days, just teasing her. She explained, “Someone saw you in Nancheng with an unfamiliar woman. Zheng Qi came to ask me if it was true. I said I didn’t know. She said she heard it from someone else too.”

Yu Yan: “Who was that woman? Who told her?”

Lu Yu: “Should I ask her now?”

            

Yu Yan was frantic: “Ask! Quick!”

So Lu Yu messaged their former classmate Zheng Qi. Zheng Qi said she didn’t know either—they’d been chatting about it at a bar with lots of people around, probably just hearsay and rumors. A moment later, Zheng Qi even apologized to Lu Yu, “It was obviously just a rumor. I shouldn’t have asked you—did it cause any trouble? Sorry, sorry about that.”

Even if it were true, just being seen walking with a woman—that was perfectly normal for anyone, let alone Yu Yan.

            

Did she find someone new after divorcing Fu Yunqing? Yu Yan knew how fragile she was, how she couldn’t stand loneliness.

A jumble of thoughts flooded her brain, tangled like a ball of yarn with no end in sight.

“Just stop thinking about it.” Lu Yu advised her. “You’re divorced, you’ve broken up, it’s been so long. Why does our Young Miss Yu still need to dwell on the past?”

            

For the first time, Yu Yan disagreed with this carefree view that so perfectly matched her persona: “I loved her that much… I really can’t just pretend nothing happened…”

“Did reading these Weibo posts make you fall for Fu Yunqing all over again?” Lu Yu teased.

Yu Yan looked up: “…Maybe.”

            

Lu Yu: “…”

In any case, Yu Yan couldn’t calm down no matter what.

She couldn’t imagine what she had forgotten—she had forgotten her past with Fu Yunqing.

            

Before marriage, she’d always been flirtatious with Fu Yunqing, just expressing her naturally affectionate, flirtatious personality. She was sweet and clingy with lots of people, thinking her relationship with Fu Yunqing was fragile. In reality, Yu Yan had played too hard—or rather, she’d fallen for real.

She never expected she’d actually commit to a relationship seriously. From the looks of it, Fu Yunqing was a gentle yet strict lover—she’d help check her clothes, put on her socks, give her the cat she’d dreamed of since childhood, even drive her to school and pick her up after class. She said Yu Yan could stay a child forever by her side. But occasionally she’d be strict, get angry—Yu Yan had been spanked on the palm and bottom with a belt. Yu Yan would call her Fu Yunqing, call her Fu-jiejie, and also call her… Mommy.

Yu Yan said Fu Yunqing was the mother she’d fantasized about as a child.

            

How could she dump such a good wife?

Yu Yan was filled with regret, wanting to reach out and grab something, but finding only empty air, making her anxious. She felt like she was dreaming, but it was undeniably real—she had forgotten their past.

She tossed and turned in bed. The moment she closed her eyes, images formed—scenes constructed from those Weibo posts kept swirling in her mind. Her mood was strange, her heartbeat racing, like that restless excitement when you sense something big is about to happen.

            

She finally fell into a fitful sleep at dawn, but still couldn’t find peace. She had a dream.

She dreamed of Fu Yunqing.

She woke in an unfamiliar place, lying on a soft, large bed. The bed smelled wonderful—the duvet and pillows carried the scent of body wash and perfume mingled with a woman’s natural fragrance. The bed was piled with stuffed animals, all cartoon characters Yu Yan loved.

            

The room was spacious, bright, and quiet. Yu Yan thought she’d traveled back three years, then realized this wasn’t her home. She noticed a long-haired black cat on a cat tree not far from the bed, staring straight at her.

She sat up. The door opened, and Fu Yunqing walked in. Yu Yan froze, gripping the duvet, wanting to say something but not knowing how to begin. Fu Yunqing found her nervousness strange, sat on the edge of the bed, reached out to touch her cheek, smoothing her sleep-tousled long hair.

She lowered her gaze, looking at Yu Yan softly, asking in a gentle voice: “Baby, you’re awake?”

            

Baby…

Fu Yunqing called her Baby. Fu Yunqing was so gentle, her hand so soft, she smelled so good… Was this… their future home?

Seeing her staring blankly, silly but kind of cute, Fu Yunqing’s eyes curved slightly. Her fingertips brushed the warm bridge of her nose as she teased: “Seems like you’re not fully awake yet.”

            

“Or did you have a nightmare?”

“Mm…” An inexplicable sense of grievance welled up in her heart. Yu Yan frowned, nearly crying, and reached out to hug Fu Yunqing.

Fu Yunqing held her in her arms. That clever little cat jumped down from the cat tree to check on Yu Yan. Fu Yunqing gently stroked her back: “Honey was guarding you the whole time. How could you have a nightmare?”

            

“I did have a nightmare,” Yu Yan buried her face in Fu Yunqing’s neck, feeling paws grabbing at her. She turned her head and met a pair of round, bright eyes.

This was Honey.

A female cat? So cute.

            

“What did you dream about?” Distracted, she heard Fu Yunqing ask. Fu Yunqing kissed her temple, lowered her head to nuzzle her—so intimate. Yu Yan couldn’t help but hold tighter to Fu Yunqing’s waist, looking at Honey, then freeing one hand to pet it, feeling so happy in this moment.

She wanted to be with Fu-jiejie forever…

Yu Yan woke up, staring blankly at the white ceiling, still caught in the dream’s afterglow, yet feeling lost and empty.

            

Mother Heavens⁷…

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