When the Female Lead Becomes Obsessive – Chapter 132

Volume Six: The Years I Wasn’t Human

Protection

An Min had said, the first-generation antidote’s medicinal properties would gradually disappear within 24 hours.

Perhaps it was because she cried too much, the medicinal properties were lost too quickly, so Wen Nuan also woke up very quickly.

Looking at Sang Er in her arms who had been miserably bullied by her, Wen Nuan got up, gently placed her on the bed, covered her well with the quilt, lowered her head and kissed her on the forehead, carrying feelings of pity and tenderness, and guilt.

Wen Nuan casually draped a coat over herself to cover her naked body, quietly went to the balcony, the action of closing the sliding door was very light, for fear of disturbing the exhausted Sang Er.

The sky was still early, the sun was still hiding under the thick clouds, unwilling to come out, the morning temperature was still icy cold, Wen Nuan placed both hands on the railing, and let out a long sigh of relief.

“Tongzi, give me a cigarette.”

She hadn’t smoked for a very long time.

【One cigarette? Is that enough?】 The system was surprised at Wen Nuan’s request, in the past when Wen Nuan was in this state, she would smoke at least a dozen or so.

Wen Nuan gave a bitter laugh: “It’s enough.”

She looked back at Sang Er sleeping on the bed, “With her here, cigarettes don’t have that much of an effect on me anymore.”

Now, the only one who made her more addicted was her.

The system teleported the cigarette over, and said worriedly: 【Are you okay?】

Wen Nuan took a deep drag of the cigarette, slowly exhaled, “I’m okay, just a bit tired.”

A weariness that seeped out from the bottom of her heart.

Wen Nuan gazed at the burning cigarette butt, the spark flickering indeterminately, just like the specks of starlight she encountered when walking slowly and alone¹ in the darkness.

Originally thought it was brilliant stars, only to discover upon getting closer that it was a scorching flame.

Not burning, not scalding, warming the heart and spleen².

【Yesterday I also tried to make you wake up, but you couldn’t walk out of it, you scared me.】 The system said worriedly.

It also scared the female lead, the blackening value even shot up a lot, but it dropped back to the original index early this morning, which was very fortunate.

Wen Nuan held the cigarette in her mouth, her eyes vacant, and said indistinctly: “Tongzi, I originally thought I wouldn’t be afraid….”

But when that scene reappeared in her mind, she seemed to have transformed into the child from back then, begging the abuser with heart-rending and lung-splitting³ cries to let her go.

She had originally thought she had already forgotten, had completely buried that past event deep down, but she suddenly discovered she was still trapped in a prison, unable to extricate herself.

That nightmare always accompanied her, no one heard her cries for help, no one saved her from the midst of water and fire⁴, if not for “her” appearance, she would have been completely pulled into the abyss by the nightmare, to rot and perish.

【If you want to forget, I can think of a way to help you completely eliminate it.】

Just like how they wanted to help Wen Nuan eliminate that tattoo back then.

Wen Nuan bit the cigarette filter, and said lightly: “Forget it, escaping is not a solution, although I’m afraid of it, I can face it.”

As long as “she” is with her, it will be fine, “she” can make her no longer afraid, no longer cold, no longer escape.

The system understood Wen Nuan’s meaning, 【As long as you feel it’s okay, that’s good.】

The Wen Nuan it saw yesterday, was the most panicked, terrified, and hysterical Wen Nuan it had seen since it had known Wen Nuan, just like a helpless and isolated crying child.

Wen Nuan finished the last drag of the cigarette, smiled: “Thanks, Tongzi.”

【It’s nothing, we will always be the best partners.】 The system comforted.

The sun, which had been blocked by the clouds, was finally willing to peek out, sunlight slanted down, landing on Wen Nuan’s face, and a pair of still-scorching arms wrapped around her waist.

Wen Nuan turned around, holding Sang Er in her arms, “Take back your ability, I’m not cold anymore.”

Sang Er looked up at Wen Nuan, seeing her eyes were no longer icy cold, but were as clear and gentle as they were at the beginning, she studied her for a good while and said: “Are you better now?”

Wen Nuan nodded and said: “Mhm, I’m better, An Min said the medicinal effect would dissipate within 24 hours.”

Forehead against forehead, she said softly: “Don’t be afraid, Little Ears, I’m fine now.”

Sang Er stood on her tiptoes, gradually moved closer, and lightly pecked those slightly cool red lips, “Wen Nuan?”

“Mhm.” She didn’t move, letting Sang Er press against her.

“Don’t be afraid,” she tilted her head, held Wen Nuan, a trace of determination flashing in her eyes, “I will protect you.”

She didn’t know what Wen Nuan was truly afraid of, what the most terrifying thing in the depths of her heart was, she wouldn’t ask, that would undoubtedly be tearing open Wen Nuan’s wound again, she couldn’t bear to see Wen Nuan experience a collapse like last night’s again.

What she could do was to stay by Wen Nuan’s side, protect her, take care of her, and love her well.

Wen Nuan’s eyelids trembled lightly, her voice trembling as she replied: “…Okay.”

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“How do you feel?”

Wen Nuan looked at An Min, who had the appearance of a refined scoundrel⁵, and asked in return: “How do you feel?”

An Min smiled, rubbing the space between his eyebrows, “A little painful.”

Wen Nuan gave a “hehe” laugh: “Extremely painful.”

“And now?” An Min glanced at Sang Er who was outside, constantly peering into the sealed room.

He asked meaningfully, “Does it still hurt?”

Wen Nuan let out a breath, and said calmly: “It’s better, just a bit tired.”

She told An Min all of her current reactions, letting him record them, to more conveniently and quickly research the antidote.

“What about you?” Wen Nuan extended her hand, “Can you still bear it?”

An Min placed his palm on Wen Nuan’s hand, his face pale, “Not really.”

Recently he had been overusing his brain, the pain becoming more and more unbearable, especially yesterday, it was as if it was going to pierce through his brain, but when he saw Wen Nuan’s fragile and wretched appearance, he really couldn’t bring himself to ask her for help.

The palm was warm, the head that was originally splitting with pain immediately felt much more relaxed, An Min’s brows smoothed out, and his complexion also improved a lot.

He withdrew his hand, and said sincerely: “Thank you.”

Wen Nuan shook her head: “Your ability level is rising too quickly, overdeveloping your brain has a hundred harms and not a single benefit for you.”

She could feel that An Min’s ability had leveled up again, his ability leveling up meant that the development of his brain was becoming more and more vast, no one knew what the result would be after the brain was one hundred percent developed.

Would it be eternal life or destruction?

At that time, would An Min be a human or a deity?

That is a new field, unknown to anyone.

An Min pushed up his glasses, “This is my mission.”

The H-agent was considered to be something they researched together, now that it has caused such a tragic situation, they should eat their own evil fruit⁶.

The former partners have all paid the price, he can’t escape either.

“You are quite philosophical about it,” Wen Nuan’s expression was a bit wistful and lost, “so now, is there any new progress in the antidote’s research and development?”

“Yes,” An Min raised the control console, allowing Wen Nuan to see the monitor, “the second-generation antidote can have results the day after tomorrow, at that time we will still need you to test it.”

Wen Nuan’s brows furrowed slightly: “We still don’t know the medicinal effects and reactions, is that right?”

“Experiments are needed,” An Min’s fingers tapped the keyboard, “during many experiments, it’s impossible to predict what adverse reactions and consequences will appear later.”

Just like yesterday’s zombies, after taking the first-generation antidote and going berserk, they quickly became listless and dispirited, and then withered and died.

Whereas after Wen Nuan took it, it triggered the most feared emotional reaction in her heart, if one cannot withstand the emotional stimulation, in a light case it would be a mental breakdown, in a severe case it would be self-termination or retaliating against society.

Wen Nuan also understood, didn’t say much, “Then I’ll leave first, notify me again when it’s ready.”

“Okay.”

Wen Nuan seemed to have thought of something, her face a bit displeased as she said: “If it’s not urgent, don’t let Leader Gao call on the communicator, just send a Weixun⁷ is fine.”

An Min paused: “…Okay.”

Although he didn’t understand this arrangement of Wen Nuan’s, when he saw her and Sang Er leaving the laboratory hand in hand, he felt that this arrangement was perhaps related to Sang Er.

As soon as they left the laboratory, Sang Er looked Wen Nuan up and down, inside and out, and then asked worriedly: “Did that guy do anything to you?”

She didn’t have the slightest intention of showing any respect for An Min, in terms of address, she naturally called him whatever she wanted to call him.

Nowadays, the fact that An Min could barely stay alive before her eyes was purely because Wen Nuan wouldn’t let her touch him and because this so-called apocalypse still needed him to save it.

Wen Nuan looked at her nervous appearance, not knowing whether to laugh or cry: “What can he do to me?”

“Did he give you any medicine to take?”

“No.”

“Then did he give you an injection?”

“No.”

Neither?!

Sang Er said, puzzled: “Then what did he look for you for?”

“To make a record.”

An Min recorded all her feelings and reactions in a book.

“Will there be a second medicine trial?” Sang Er was still worried, she was afraid Wen Nuan would once again experience such a painful moment like yesterday.

Wen Nuan could see Sang Er’s anxiety, patted her head, “It’s okay, everything will get better.”

Even if Sang Er didn’t say it, the existence of the apocalypse was still one of the reasons affecting the fluctuation of her blackening value.

Sang Er’s head drooped, silent and not speaking.

“What’s wrong?” Wen Nuan half-squatted, tilting her head to look at her, “Unhappy?”

Sang Er nodded: “Unhappy.”

“Why are you unhappy?” Wen Nuan said, “Once Doctor An Min creates the antidote, the apocalypse will be completely over, and we can go back to living a stable life.”

“It is precisely because of that, that I am unhappy.” Sang Er didn’t like to hold in her words, especially towards Wen Nuan, doing so would make her feel like a hundred claws were scratching her heart⁸.

Wen Nuan paused: “Why?”

“Because you will be in pain, you will be scared, you will cry…”

You will hide in my arms, at a loss of what to do, I can embrace you, but don’t tremble, don’t cry.

She looked at Wen Nuan, her eyes full of pity and tenderness, and rushed straight into Wen Nuan’s heart.

“I can’t bear for you to be in pain, for you to be scared, and I don’t want to see you cry.”

“If ending the apocalypse requires you to pay so much, then forget it, even if the world is destroyed in the end, as long as you are by my side, I am also very satisfied.”

System: 【Blackening value decreased, the female lead’s current blackening value is 0.9!】

These few words from Wen Nuan made the top of her head tingle slightly, she blinked her eyes, and said: “The end of the apocalypse, isn’t that good?”

She really thought that Sang Er’s last bit of blackening value would be completely cleared because of the end of the apocalypse, so she had been very actively cooperating with An Min’s experiments.

As it turns out, what she wanted wasn’t these things?

“It’s good, and also not good, I feel…” Sang Er hooked Wen Nuan’s finger, interlocking their fingers tightly, “being able to be with you forever, is very good.”

She doesn’t want much, doesn’t expect the world to be reborn, doesn’t hope for the world’s admiration.

What she wants, is only Wen Nuan, that alone is good enough.

She wants to protect Wen Nuan, give her true warmth, wipe her tears, hold her in her arms, look after her carefully, and give Wen Nuan everything she wants.

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