Still Have This Side – Chapter 51

Should she not have come into this world?

Qiu Zimin followed the two aunties home.

On the way, she was in the back seat, silent with few words, the happy energy from just starting vacation was all gone.

The sudden appearance of her grandparents still affected her mood.

Yi Wanyue was driving the car, Qiu Baiyu sat in the passenger seat, the two looked at each other.

“Zimin.”

Qiu Zimin lifted her head to look toward the passenger seat.

She heard Qiu Baiyu say: “You are now my family’s child, and no one can take you away, otherwise the police uncle will catch them, so they will never see their parents again, understand?”

As the words entered her ears, she blinked her eyes, then smiled and nodded her head once.

Then the smile slowly disappeared again.

She lowered her head sitting in the back, not knowing what she was worried about.

Qiu Baiyu and Yi Wanyue looked at each other.

“Let’s talk about it when we get home,” Yi Wanyue said.

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After arriving home, the two put down the things in their hands, letting Qiu Zimin sit on the sofa, while they sat on the floor facing her.

At this moment, they very much hoped solving the Wang Jianjun couple could eliminate the remaining 1%.

Yi Wanyue spoke first: “Xiaomin, are you unhappy because of your grandparents?”

Qiu Zimin nodded her head once.

Then, she shook her head once again.

Yes and no.

Qiu Baiyu saw her two hands gloomily twisted together, reached out to hold them, and softly said: “Don’t hold unhappy things in your heart, it’s not like before now; now you have aunties to listen to you and protect you.

“Tell the aunties, why you’re also unhappy even when your grandparents aren’t here.”

Qiu Zimin lowered her head to look at the red string on her wrist.

Her brows and eyes drooped, all her happy energy was gone.

After a good while, she slowly asked: “Auntie, is it that no one wanted me to come into this world…”

Her grandparents don’t like her, and her dad and paternal grandparents don’t like her either.

Clearly, they are her family, but none of these adults anticipated her arrival.

Is it that she just shouldn’t have come into this world?

Qiu Baiyu and Yi Wanyue both paused, stunned.

Originally, what troubled her was this question.

An unanticipated child keenly perceives the blood relatives’ dislike, how is this not a form of cruelty?

Qiu Baiyu can understand this feeling of hers.

Her birth was also not anticipated by her parents.

They probably very much wished they never had her as this accident.

But what if they didn’t want her? She was still born.

And, someone would be glad for her arrival—her grandma.

“I understand your feelings. Do you still remember the friend I talked to you about?”

“The friend without a dad and mom?”

“Yes, her dad and mom also didn’t anticipate her.”

Yi Wanyue turned her head to look toward Qiu Baiyu.

Qiu Zimin doesn’t know who that friend is, but she does.

Looking at Qiu Baiyu’s calm appearance, her heart ached indescribably—how cruel must parents be to abandon their child?

“But her grandma wanted her.”

Qiu Baiyu’s voice sounded, and in her otherwise calm tone, a trace of ripple finally appeared, falling on the corner of her lips, raising a pleasant arc.

She once also unavoidably doubted her coming.

Dad ran away, mom wasn’t willing to see her, should she really have come to this world?

Until one day, she and her grandma were cooking together, she forgot what they talked about that day, but she clearly remembered her grandma smiling brightly and saying to her: “You can be my family’s child, I’m very happy.”

Grandma said happy.

She said it smiling, from the heart.

Just that smile, like the sun, instantly illuminated all the haze in her heart.

This world isn’t beautiful everywhere, but there’s always that one place, bright, that belongs only to her.

Qiu Baiyu looked at the child in front of her, she gently lifted up that one bright piece of beauty for her.

That piece of beauty belongs only to Qiu Zimin.

“Your mom, who endured much and very bravely brought you into this world, anticipated your arrival.”

Qiu Zimin looked toward her, eyes blank, but inside burned a small cluster of light.

Mom…?

Qiu Baiyu held her hand, signaling her to look at the red string on her wrist.

The red string, a thin line, set with a small gold lock, had words engraved on top.

This is what her mom left her, and she’s always worn it.

“Who gave this to you?”

“Mom.”

“What words are engraved on top?”

“Peace, happiness.”

“Do you know what this means?”

“Safe? Happy?”

Qiu Zimin wasn’t too certain.

Then her hand was tightly held.

“Yes, safe, happy.”

Qiu Baiyu gazed at her gently.

“Mom is anticipating you, and mom is also anticipating that you can always be safe and happy, so you’re not a child that no one anticipates.”

Words seemed to give the red string power.

Qiu Zimin seemed to perceive its warmth, warm but not hot, that was probably the warmth of mom’s embrace.

The expectation mom left for her has always been by her side.

She’s not a child that no one anticipates.

The light in her eyes became brighter.

Yi Wanyue also raised her hand and gently touched her hair: “Auntie is also anticipating you.”

Qiu Zimin slowly turned her head to look at her.

She only saw her smiling as she said: “Before seeing you, auntie was already anticipating meeting you.”

Anticipating seeing this child’s appearance and personality.

Anticipating seeing this child have a new life, radiating different energy.

“Later, every weekend, auntie would anticipate you coming to auntie’s house to learn piano,” Yi Wanyue said, “this is also a kind of anticipation, isn’t it?”

Hearing these words, the gaze in her eyes became increasingly bright.

“So there are so many people anticipating me…”

“Of course.”

Qiu Baiyu, smiling, touched her head.

“Is your mood better now?”

Qiu Zimin nodded, finally smiled.

“But…”

Qiu Baiyu still wanted to say a bit more to her.

“Auntie hopes you don’t care too much about others’ expectations, even if no one expects us, it doesn’t matter, because we can expect ourselves, and the world will also expect us.

“The world expects every child who comes into this world, expects you to grow up healthy, then see its vastness, feel it, even conquer its vastness.

“The world is so, so big, what do others’ expectations count as compared to it, right?”

Listening to her words, Qiu Zimin seemed to see the surging sea and the lush green prairie before her eyes.

The world to her is really very, very big—bigger than their school’s playground!

“Do I go see myself?” She suddenly asked.

“You can also invite others to go with you.” Qiu Baiyu answered.

“Then auntie go with me!” She became excited.

“Okay, auntie will go with you.” Qiu Baiyu smiled.

“Auntie Wanyue also go with me!” She hadn’t forgotten Yi Wanyue.

“Mm, Auntie Wanyue will also go with you.” Yi Wanyue smiled.

Qiu Zimin became happy.

She tightly held the red string in her hand, her eyes bright.

——Mom will also go with me.

“Then…” Her expression became hesitant again, “What about Grandpa and Grandma?”

Qiu Baiyu retorted: “Grandpa and Grandma? Where do you have Grandpa and Grandma?”

Qiu Zimin: “?”

Qiu Baiyu with a serious face: “We agreed, how others treat you is how you should treat others. If they don’t treat you as family, then you don’t treat them as family. From today on, they are not your Grandpa and Grandma, and you can choose not to forgive them for life.”

Qiu Zimin was a bit stunned: “… Forever not forgive?”

“Yes, this is your right.”

Qiu Baiyu fixed her eyes on her.

“Xiaomin, I hope you’re kind, and also hope you have principles.

“You were hurt, you weren’t happy, so no one can demand you forgive them, even if those who hurt you later grow old, you don’t need to forgive them.

“Becoming old only means they have no ability to bully you, not that they’ve become good, understand?”

Qiu Zimin nodded, seemingly understanding and not understanding.

Seeing this, Yi Wanyue smiled and patted her hand: “It’s okay, no rush, you’re still young and have a lot of time to understand what auntie says.

“Is your mood much better now?”

Qiu Zimin nodded “mm mm,” the smile on her face finally bright.

Yi Wanyue touched her small face, her tone gentle: “Then go wash your hands and eat something. Your summer vacation has started, oh.”

“Yay!”

The little friend’s vacation excitement finally returned.

Qiu Zimin happily ran to wash her hands.

She didn’t want to think about Grandpa and Grandma; they were not her Grandpa and Grandma anymore.

She wanted to eat well and later go with her aunties to see how big the world is!

After Qiu Zimin left, Yi Wanyue turned her head to look at Qiu Baiyu, discovering she was staring at the top of Qiu Zimin’s head, as if looking at something she couldn’t see.

Yi Wanyue immediately understood and softly asked, “Is there movement?”

Qiu Baiyu nodded her head once: “Yes.”

——Qiu Zimin’s blackening progress bar had movement.

“How is it? Cleared?”

“No, it just decreased by 0.5%.”

“?”

It actually only decreased by 0.5%?

They resisted the vampire-like grandfather and grandmother for her, and also explained the doubts she always had, letting her see a beautiful other side, yet the progress bar still has 0.5% remaining??

This remaining 0.5% is quite stubborn.

But what will that remaining 0.5 be?

Does this child still have unresolved concerns in her heart?

The two adults looked at each other and then, with tacit understanding, turned their heads to watch the child laying out the snacks they had packed and brought back, one by one.

A smile was on her face, and the fear brought by her grandfather and grandmother had already disappeared.

She had become that carefree child again.

Qiu Baiyu silently watched the child holding the orange juice, and after a moment, calmly said, “Take it slowly, there’s no rush.”

With her here, even if the sky were to fall, it wouldn’t press down on Qiu Zimin.

Yi Wanyue nodded: “That’s good, we have plenty of time.”

Qiu Baiyu patted her shoulder: “Let’s eat.”

Just as she was about to get up, her finger was suddenly grabbed by someone.

Not understanding why, she turned her head to look at Yi Wanyue.

Yi Wanyue’s eyes were gentle, her tone with a smile, suddenly said to her: “Meeting you, I’m also very happy, especially, especially happy.”

As she spoke, her fingertip gently caressed her face: “I hope you can be happy every day too.”

Then she withdrew her hand and got up to go to the dining table.

Qiu Baiyu sat alone on the ground, her eyes bewildered.

She raised her hand to press on her heart, her expression suddenly clear.

Because just now, when Yi Wanyue touched her face and said she hoped she’d be happy every day, her heartbeat seemed… a beat faster?

She didn’t understand why it would be like this.

In her mind, only Yi Wanyue’s gentle appearance at that moment remained clearly.

But Yi Wanyue’s words were very sudden.

She guessed Yi Wanyue probably wanted to say this sentence to her when she talked about her memory of her grandmother.

Although it was very sudden, hearing it actually made her heart feel warm.

In the real world, her grandmother was happy for her arrival.

And in this world, Yi Wanyue rejoices at her arrival.

Qiu Baiyu raised her hand to touch the place Yi Wanyue had touched, and turned her head to look at Yi Wanyue.

The other person was talking and laughing with Qiu Zimin.

Her friend, this person is really very good.

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