Fate Trading System – Chapter 359

Plan B

Heart-Stealing Operation 18

Like you.

Love you.

Want you.

Su Xin opened her eyes in confusion, feeling that she had seemingly heard that sentence tens of millions of times.

It was as if someone had been saying it to her continuously, unable to remember the time, place, or face, but the voice remained in her mind.

Su Xin shook her head, and those voices disappeared again in an instant.

Very strange.

Master Fourteen, do you know what is going on?

【It might be a weak memory remaining in the Host’s mind. Memory blurring is not omnipotent; some memories are held very firmly by the Host and can still be triggered after being blurred.】

Su Xin understood; it was probably from a romance she had in the past, words spoken to her by a person she liked who liked her.

And the key point that triggered this was the ‘like’ that Chu Yanxi said?

“But there are so many people who are better-looking than me.”

“A beauty is in the bones, not in the skin¹.”

“You don’t care about physical appearance?”

“I only care about you.”

“I can’t figure it out.”

“The first time I saw you, I knew that you were supposed to be mine.”

Chu Yanxi turned over, looking at Su Xin’s back.

“Love at first sight?”

“More profound than that.”

“But it’s very unreasonable.”

“Love is inherently without reason.”

Su Xin maintained her previous sleeping posture without moving; she knew Chu Yanxi was right behind her, watching her.

Su Xin’s emotional intelligence is not very high; she cannot learn how to tactfully make a person who loves her not love her, nor can she bring herself to commit acts of harm that she mistakenly believes are for the other person’s good.

She is relatively direct, so direct it is almost unreasonable.

“Then what would it take for you to not like me?”

Chu Yanxi’s hand suddenly tightened, her eyes dark.

“Has my liking you caused you trouble?”

“No…… I like it very much, it’s just……”

Su Xin was a bit agitated; she wanted to explain things clearly, but did not know if it was appropriate.

“It’s just what?”

Su Xin hates dragging things out, being like a lotus root breaking but the fibers still connecting², and being unclear.

She is the type who, once bidding farewell to a matter, will sever it cleanly and clearly, because she will have a showdown, does not like misunderstandings, and she also does not like to leave others with delusions; a broken mirror pieced back together³ does not exist.

This kind of decisiveness and directness might be too self-centered, but Su Xin, well, she insists on being herself.

Su Xin sat up from the bed. Seeing her movement, Chu Yanxi also sat up, and the two people faced each other.

“I probably don’t have long to live, so can you not like me, okay?”

“What nonsense are you spouting.”

Chu Yanxi frowned. In the darkness of the night, she could not see the expression of the person opposite her, but she could hear the carelessness in her tone.

“I’ve already had it checked, it’s been confirmed. I know my body’s situation; you understand what I mean.”

“Are you not afraid at all?”

“I have already walked this path once before.”

Su Xin shook her own wrist.

“Are you afraid I’ll be sad?”

“Yes.”

“You care about me?”

“A little bit.”

“Then that’s enough.”

Chu Yanxi reached out her hand and pulled her little girl into her arms.

“How can you be so calm?”

“Not at all.”

Chu Yanxi’s other hand was trembling slightly, but her voice remained unchanged.

“So……”

“So you’ve agreed to my pursuit?”

“Aha?”

“If…… I’m saying if…… you liked me, but I was about to die, and I said to you, ‘go find someone else to like,’ would you agree?”

“Of course not. If you also liked me, then being together for a period of time is being together for a period of time…… you……”

What surprised Su Xin was that this person would think the same way as her.

A simple, plain statement, not for the sake of gaining sympathy and affection.

“Don’t be unwilling to start just because you fear the end. You really do understand me.”

Chu Yanxi kissed Su Xin’s forehead.

The most painful thing is not being separated by yin and yang⁴ after getting together, but rather, when she was alive, clearly having the chance to be together, yet not taking it.

If they got together, what would be left for the rest of one’s life is a long-lasting longing. But if they did not get together, there would instead be an endless amount of time to miss them, because of the inability to obtain what one seeks⁵.

Su Xin is not very selfish; she could have completely hidden it from Chu Yanxi and then started a relationship with her, but she couldn’t do it. Her conscience wouldn’t allow it; she would feel awful.

So she stated the premise clearly: we can be together, but I am going to die.

Whether you want to be together or not, you can decide for yourself.

Su Xin just likes to hand this kind of choice over to others, the little one without a conscience, since anyway, the one who feels bad isn’t her.

When life is gratifying, one must enjoy it to the fullest; do not let the golden goblet face the moon empty⁶.

“So now……”

“Let’s be together then, how much time do you have left?”

When she asked this question, Chu Yanxi felt as if her heart was dripping blood.

But her tone of voice was still very normal; her sadness could not be seen.

Not a single minute or second could be wasted. Chu Yanxi let out a breath and held the Su Xin in her arms a little tighter.

“Probably a few more months, I guess.”

Su Xin spoke vaguely; she wasn’t certain either.

After a long silence, Chu Yanxi finally said good night.

“Good night.”

“Good night.”

Su Xin did not sleep well the entire night and felt a bit floaty.

Chu Yanxi, on the other hand, did not sleep the entire night. The head that was already in great pain from drinking alcohol became even more severe because of the sleepless night.

“Why aren’t you sleeping?”

Chu Yanxi tugged at the corner of her mouth but did not speak.

She couldn’t fall asleep.

The moment she closed her eyes, some bad images would surface. She didn’t dare to sleep, and also couldn’t bear to sleep.

She clearly knew it wasn’t as if she would lose her in the next second, yet she still felt unbearably awful.

“This is the reason why I was unwilling to have a showdown with you before.”

Su Xin half-knelt on the bed and pinched Chu Yanxi’s face.

“If liking me makes you feel awful, then I would rather I had never appeared before you.”

It is not being unwilling to start because of fearing the end.

But rather, it is fearing that the person who loves her will feel bad in their heart, so it is better to simply not start at all.

“Not allowed.”

Chu Yanxi leaned against Su Xin’s body, her complexion very unsightly.

“Then be a little happier and get a good sleep. I’ll call your assistant and say you’re not going in this morning, is that okay? If it’s something urgent, your current state isn’t good for it anyway.”

“I can contact the best hospitals at home and abroad……”

Warm kisses landed on Chu Yanxi’s forehead, face, and lips.

“I said, I know my own body. If you act like this, I won’t like you anymore. Hurry up and sleep; I’ll sleep with you for a while.”

“Okay.”

Chu Yanxi lay down, but Su Xin’s eyes were still open.

Master Fourteen, do you think there’s a possibility that the one who likes me and the one I like are the same person?

Su Xin was just guessing randomly. This inexplicable sense of dependence and trust, this sense of certainty and favorable impression that even she herself found strange. It came from nowhere, yet it seemed as if it was fated.

Without waiting for Fourteen to answer, Su Xin again smilingly negated her own thought.

How could that be possible? It’s too absurd.

How could there be such a coincidence? With so many planes⁷ and worlds, she has a system, but it’s impossible that that person has one too.

Fourteen remained silent, not making a sound.

The truth that you do not know is a fact even more absurd than a lie.

Chu Yanxi rested at home, while Su Xin went out to eat with Chu Muyu.

They had an appointment, and Su Xin arrived at the destination.

In the summer, one dresses in light and thin clothing. Su Xin wore a white shirt, slightly covering the marks on her neck, but as long as she lifted her head, those marks would be completely exposed.

Chu Muyu waved her hand, her smile bright and beautiful.

“A new grilled fish⁸ restaurant just opened. They say it’s especially delicious. Let’s eat there today.”

“Okay.”

Su Xin nodded and followed Chu Muyu.

“On such a hot day, you’re still wearing a shirt and covering yourself up so tightly. Aren’t you hot?”

“It’s alright.”

The atmosphere between the two people was a bit slightly awkward. Su Xin would occasionally make conversation, while Chu Muyu was racking her brain to think of topics.

It seemed there weren’t many common topics between them. What Chu Muyu was more familiar with were things like handbags, shoes, and cosmetics, but Chu Muyu also knew that Lin Xiaohuan didn’t know much about those things. If she talked about that, then it would be completely meaningless. What Lin Xiaohuan might be more interested in were perhaps some books, whereas Chu Muyu basically doesn’t read literary works much.

“Recently, several dramas have been trending. Are you watching any of them?”

“No, I’ve been binge-watching something else recently.”

“What drama is it?”

Chu Muyu put on an interested expression.

Su Xin said the name of an American drama, and Chu Muyu quickly nodded.

In fact, Chu Muyu prefers to watch Korean dramas, just like other girls.

“Customers, your drinks.”

The waiter placed a large glass of sour plum soup⁹ on the table, breaking the awkwardness.

They had just finished ordering the fish, and just had to wait. Currently, there weren’t many customers, so it should be served very soon.

Chu Muyu felt very troubled; coaxing girls is really so difficult.

She had already booked the next plan, for example, asking Lin Xiaohuan to go see a movie. Going shopping on such a hot day wouldn’t be very comfortable, and Lin Xiaohuan doesn’t really like to go out much. It would be better to go see a movie and relax. She had already looked up which movie would be more suitable.

Su Xin took a sip of the sour plum soup, wiped the sweat from her forehead with a napkin, and undid one of her shirt buttons. But then, as if she had suddenly thought of something, she hurriedly buttoned it back up.

Chu Muyu, however, with her sharp eyes, seemed to have already seen something.

“What is that on your neck?”

“Just a few large bumps from mosquito bites.”

Chu Muyu didn’t quite believe it. It’s not like she had never done that kind of thing before; she could still distinguish between bumps from mosquito bites and marks made by someone else.

“What kind of mosquito is so good at biting?”

An inexplicable annoyance caused Chu Muyu to let out a cold snort.

“Who knows? Maybe they just prefer this spot.”

Su Xin’s expression was unnatural for a moment, and her reaction was taken in completely by Chu Muyu who was opposite her.

Chu Muyu snorted coldly again, biting her lip and sitting up straight.

How long has it been, and Lin Xiaohuan is already so…… so…… casual?

The meal was eaten unhappily. Of course, it was Chu Muyu who was unhappy; Su Xin was quite happy and thought it was indeed quite delicious.

Anyway, if Chu Muyu was unhappy, then she was happy, you know.

“I’m leaving.”

“Oh, bye-bye.”

Chu Muyu irritably clenched the paper in her hand and paced back and forth in one spot several times.

Tsk, which wild woman¹⁰ is it that hooked up with Lin Xiaohuan so quickly?

Su Xin hadn’t walked far when she received a call from Chu Yanxi.

“Finished eating?”

“Mm.”

“Then come back. I’m waiting for you at home.”

Su Xin held her phone, vaguely feeling that there seemed to always be someone at home, waiting for her to return.

Flowers fall, one can do nothing about it; swallows return, a scene that seems familiar¹¹.

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The author has something to say:

【Correct interpretation of the poem】 Everything beautiful that must inevitably fade cannot be stopped from fading, but at the same time as it fades, there is still the reappearance of beautiful things; life will not become a complete void because of this fading. It’s just that this reappearance, after all, is not equal to the exact same reappearance of the beautiful thing; it is merely “a scene that seems familiar.” 【Applied interpretation】 Love will always fade, life will sooner or later wither, but what is similar yet not entirely the same, is my untainted, true heart for you.

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