Plan A
The Queen of the Deep Sea 13
Goodbye
No matter if it is a human or an animal, a few days before the arrival of the deadline, it seems as if there is a feeling, and animals’ perception of this is even more obvious.
Su Xin clearly knows that she is about to die. Fortunately, there are no major twists and turns; she will die of old age.
She just feels that this is very unfair to her lover, but there is no way. From the moment they were together, they should have known there would be such an ending.
Her appearance stays in her prime, she will not grow old, still so attractive, but she is old, very old, so old that a long time ago the queen of the mermaid tribe has already changed.
Li Yunxi is 75 years old today. In Su Xin’s era, this should be considered quite an old age, but in this era, this is still relatively young; her physical functions are still very good.
This is not the tragedy of “you were born, but I was not born; I was born, but you were already old,” but “you and I were born together, but not for long.”
This is a torment for Li Yunxi, watching her lover leave but being helpless, she cannot win against death, nor can she stop her lover from leaving this world.
In the seventh year they were together, the year they got married and had children, Li Yunxi already knew the fact about Su Xin’s lifespan. Her lover’s life would only be half as long as hers.
After Li Yunxi knew, she was very panicked, holding Su Xin not knowing what to do. Su Xin comforted her, saying it doesn’t matter, we still have forty-three years together, her remaining life will be all hers.
But Li Yunxi’s fear did not decrease; mere forty-three years, although it sounds very long, but walking step by step, it seems to be such a short distance.
Li Yunxi went to find Gao Ying, asked her if there was a way to extend the lifespan of mermaids, but got a negative answer.
Gao Ying said, no.
This is the law of biological evolution, nature dictates that the lifespan of mermaids is eighty years, then it is eighty years, they do not die of illness, but of old age.
Modifying genes or injecting foreign substances to interfere with this is useless, the cells inside mermaids lose vitality, nothing can save it.
Li Yunxi was very emotionally disturbed in those days when she couldn’t figure it out, Su Xin did not dare to mention anything about herself, only constantly diverting Li Yunxi’s attention.
Clearly, she was the one who was going to die first, but this person was aggrieved and collapsed as if the sky was falling.
At that time, Su Xin thought, if she hadn’t gotten involved with Li Yunxi in that way back then, would Li Yunxi have had a different life now, perhaps someone who could accompany her until old age would be by her side.
But soon after, Su Xin overthrew this idea, there is no such “if,” Li Yunxi likes her. Those few days, they didn’t go anywhere, Li Yunxi held her, accompanied her at home.
A few days later, Li Yunxi returned to normal, but she clung to her even more fiercely.
Ah Shui grew up, and grew very big.
She is already married and has her own child.
Su Xin became a grandmother, holding her own grandson, extremely happy. Li Yunxi was also happy, but after Ah Shui’s family left, she stayed in the room with a dark face.
The bigger Ah Shui grew, the older Su Xin became, and the less time she had left.
Fourteen clearly told Su Xin that she had three days left to live.
Master Fourteen, I think this kind of dying of old age is a form of lingering pain for Li Yunxi.
【Mm.】
Su Xin didn’t know who to talk to about this topic; Li Yunxi definitely wouldn’t do, so she had to chat with her little companion about life.
Due to Fourteen’s blurred memory of her last recollection, and after so many years, she no longer clearly remembered what Qu Feiqing looked like or the story between them, but she remembered being cleanly stabbed once, it happened so quickly, none of them expected it.
Qu Feiqing’s pain was like a sudden decapitation, but Li Yunxi’s pain was a lingering death. She knew in advance that she would leave her this way. If they grew old together, it wouldn’t matter, but unfortunately, that’s not the case.
Master Fourteen, shouldn’t I have fallen in love?
Clearly, they are all existences unrelated to the mission, merely because she wants to.
【I do not think so. Appropriate emotional adjustments are beneficial to the host’s physical and mental health; this is the host’s freedom outside the mission.】
Fourteen thinks that as long as its host is happy, it’s fine.
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But every time I leave, they suffer greatly.
So, is it really right for her to insert herself into their lives? Su Xin only does it because she is happy and she wants to. She had feelings for Qu Feiqing, so she was with her. In this new life, she had feelings for Li Yunxi, so she was with Li Yunxi.
In reality, it was mutual consent, Su Xin initiated it, but the ones who couldn’t let go were them, so Su Xin had relationships with them.
【But they were happy, and they were happy for a long, long time.】
Although sooner or later she will leave, people will eventually die anyway. Isn’t being born meant to take a journey through this world? If one hesitates because of distant pain, then there wouldn’t be the happiness in front of them.
Right.
Su Xin didn’t want to think about it anymore. She hugged Li Yunxi’s waist and kissed her face.
“Fifty years,” Su Xin said slowly, “we have been together for almost fifty years.”
“Mm.”
Li Yunxi stroked Su Xin’s still radiant golden hair.
“The whole world knows we are in love.”
“Mm.”
“Don’t be sad, okay?”
“I can’t do it.”
Li Yunxi buried herself in Su Xin’s embrace, listening to Su Xin’s heartbeat.
“Fifty years, is that very short for you?”
Su Xin asked.
“Mm.”
Li Yunxi answered directly, yes, very short, only one-third of her life.
“Why didn’t I meet you earlier?”
Li Yunxi thought, why didn’t humans discover the traces of mermaids earlier? Why didn’t she appear there earlier?
“Not early, not late, just right, when I became an adult. If it wasn’t for fighting the giant shark at that time, I wouldn’t have surfaced to the shallow sea, and in the end, I wouldn’t have been on the beach, and then picked up by you.”
Li Yunxi responded softly.
“Fifty years is very long for me, almost all spent with you. I gave you everything, so don’t be sad.”
I am very poor, my life is only eighty years, but I gave you fifty years. Even though it’s not enough for you, I have given you my all.
Li Yunxi’s body trembled, her voice sounding like she was about to cry.
“I know.”
Su Xin hurriedly cupped her face, there were no tears on it, that almost choking sound seemed like it was her illusion.
In the last three days, they didn’t make love.
They just quietly drank water and ate meals as usual, they refused all visitors, including Ah Shui.
Time slipped away, no one could hold onto it.
This day, after all, still had to come.
“Take me back to the ocean.”
Su Xin said.
Born in the sea, end in the sea, this is the destiny of every mermaid.
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“Okay.”
Li Yunxi still held her like when they were young, even though in these fifty years, Su Xin could already walk by herself.
Ah Shui waited at the door, following step by step with her child and lover behind her mother.
Li Yunxi wore special diving clothes and stayed in the sea with Su Xin.
“Thank you, and… I’m sorry.”
Su Xin smiled, the entire ocean seemed to enhance her beauty.
She left.
When a mermaid dies, there is no corpse, she turns into foam and becomes nothingness with the flow of the seawater.
Her mermaid lady just disappeared in front of her, like an illusion in a story. In an instant, her eyes were filled only with the blue sea.
【The body has died, transferring back to the space.】
Su Xin returned to a white space, touched her black hair, still a bit unaccustomed.
【Returning to the original world, cryogenic sleep mode disengaged, life settlement in progress, remaining life in the real world: 21 months. Please enjoy life well, I will find you again if there is a mission.】
Fourteen spoke to Su Xin.
【The world’s memories are blurring, I have already helped the host process it, it will not affect normal life.】
Okay, Master Fourteen, goodbye.
【Goodbye.】
Su Xin lay on Qiu Qingqing’s big bed, eyes open, then rolled around a bit on the bed.
【The world after you left】
Li Yunxi thought she had screamed her heart out, but she didn’t make a sound.
“Not even a memory is left for me.”
With current technology, corpses can be kept in a frozen state, not decaying, just like they are sleeping.
But now, with even the corpse gone, there is no hope of seeing her.
“Not even a memory left for me,” Li Yunxi murmured, repeating the phrase, “not left for me.”
“Saying thank you and sorry, what’s the use!”
Li Yunxi grasped the seawater, but could hold onto nothing.
Li Yunxi wanted to die there, to die in the place where Su Xin had stayed, but was saved by Ah Shui.
“Mother, mom wouldn’t want to see you like this. What’s the use of dying here in such an ugly way?”
If Li Yunxi died in the sea, her body wouldn’t remain, only bones would be left, and fish would gnaw at her body, how ugly that would be.
Li Yunxi stared blankly at the child she had with Su Xin, her expression dazed.
Li Yunxi resigned from her position, but was dissuaded by the king.
“Father, if you stop me, I’m not sure I can control myself from causing bloodshed.”
Li Yunxi’s gaze was extremely cold, the king sighed and let her go.
Li Yunxi and Su Xin had stored many of their photos in their light brains. Li Yunxi also recorded many videos for Su Xin.
She immersed herself in the past memories with Su Xin, pretending that person was still by her side.
“Hurry up and eat.”
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Su Xin in the light screen urged with a smile.
“Okay.”
Li Yunxi nodded, sat at the dining table, and slowly ate her meal.
“Wash thoroughly, or you won’t be allowed to go to bed.”
The blonde mermaid lady’s expression was spirited, with charm at the corners of her eyes and eyebrows.
“Okay.”
Li Yunxi took her clothes and walked into the bathroom, watching Su Xin’s photos on the light screen while taking a bath.
“Alright, alright, I like you, I like you.”
Su Xin’s face was slightly red on the light screen, coaxing Li Yunxi.
Li Yunxi was stunned, squatting down, the water flowing over her back.
Tears fell to the ground along with the water flow, Li Yunxi hugged herself.
I miss you so much.
“Little heartless one.”