Scum A with a Sweet Black Lotus O – Chapter 170
by Little PandaShe and Her · Side CP
Zhao Yujun x Lu Ningyan (End)
“Wishing you a smooth journey and a bright future.”【End of Full Text】
The next time she received a call from Lu Ningyan was half a year later.
It was late at night.
Actually, there had been two other times in between.
Once, the phone rang twice before being connected, and the other side hung up on their own.
The other time, Zhao Yujun had just picked up and said a single “hello,” only for the other person to seemingly freeze upon hearing her voice, then immediately say, “Wrong number.” The tone was flat and calm, showing no ripples of emotion, let alone leading to any follow-up.
This time, Lu Ningyan seemed to be truly drunk, hysterical from the very start.
“Zhao Yujun, you can’t forget me! You can’t forget me!!”
It was a declaration, a delusion, and even more so, a curse.
One directed at herself as well.
“Wuwuwu—I can’t forget you, so what right do you have to forget me so easily, you b#stard!”
“You b#stard, Zhao Yujun, I miss you so much. I missed you right after I left, I missed you when I was abroad, I’d think of you when I was busy, and I’d think of you even more when I was free… I deliberately never said we should break up, so it was as if we were still together, leaving all possibilities open.”
“Plenty of people confessed to me when I was abroad, and I rejected them all. Do you know why? Because you were still in my heart. I know it’s the same for you, I know it! I even know you secretly came to see me, but I could only pretend I didn’t know. I didn’t have time for a relationship back then, because whenever I had a free moment, the things weighing on me would make me panic again. So, to relieve the stress, I would start thinking of you again.”
“I could only think of you.”
“As long as I thought about how we were the same, how our hearts were still together, I felt like I wasn’t so lonely, and definitely not so suffocated.”
“You know my bad temper, you’ve known it since the very beginning, so why couldn’t you just tolerate me a little more like you used to? I’m truly at my wit’s end. I’m so pathetic, why can’t you just dote on me a little more…”
Lu Ningyan was truly drunk, her words a jumble of hysterical rambling.
Such a display of weakness would never have come from the mouth of the proud little princess. Throughout it all, she didn’t even give Zhao Yujun a chance to speak, so Zhao Yujun could only listen all the way through.
During the countless days and nights of breaking up, getting back together, breaking up, getting back together, and breaking up again, although she had also had such thoughts, hearing them truly come from Lu Ningyan’s mouth was an entirely different feeling.
The Omega is showing weakness.
She understood this clearly but didn’t point it out or question it. She just waited patiently through the entire thing.
Until Lu Ningyan’s emotional outburst was spent.
“Xiao Yan,” she called her name just as she always had. “Are you free soon?”
“Free?”
The drunk Lu Ningyan’s mind was extremely muddled, her reactions sluggish. A moment passed before she said, “Yeah, I’m… I’m free. What’s up, Yuyu?”
Yuyu was Lu Ningyan’s exclusive nickname for her.
Zhao Yujun lowered her gaze, but the reflection in the glass opposite her, illuminated by the office’s fluorescent lights, clearly showed her current expression.
“Let’s meet.”
The appointed time was the very next day.
It was actually a workday, but this time, neither of them brought up being busy with work. Even Lu Ningyan, who was in the middle of her career ascent, specifically took a day off to come. The place they went, however, was their old high school.
It was still during school hours, so they couldn’t go in. Instead, the two of them wandered through all the small shops in the surrounding area, walking through them one by one.
More than six years had passed. Many of the old shops had changed owners and storefronts, but among the few that remained, one could still glimpse a trace of their former glory.
Today’s Lu Ningyan was once again exquisite and elegant, showing no sign of last night’s breakdown. Zhao Yujun was also tactful enough not to mention it at all, treating the outing as a reunion of old friends.
Their communication was completely harmonious, without a hint of estrangement.
It was just as Lu Ningyan had said in her breakdown over the phone yesterday—“As long as we don’t mention breaking up, we will always be together.”
Therefore, it didn’t feel awkward. They were just a couple who had been separated for a period of time, whether long or short, due to time, distance, or work. They were still lovers, and they would still end up together.
On this day, they ate and shopped everywhere. They even bought childish accessories and a plush doll. The Lu Ningyan of the past had liked such things, and looking at her today, she probably still did.
It was hard to tell if she liked the doll itself, or the person who gave her the doll.
Even though it completely clashed with her outfit today, she held it the entire time. She looked slightly comical, causing people to turn their heads for a second look.
Finally, they ordered drinks at a newly opened milk tea shop and sat at the counter. Lu Ningyan placed the doll on the seat next to her, then pushed the cup she had been drinking from toward Zhao Yujun.
An attempt to swap.
A test.
The Omega had not tied up her hair today. Her raven-black hair fell naturally, slightly obscuring her cheeks when she lowered her head, making her expression unreadable.
That was perhaps her last suit of prideful armor.
The Omega asked nonchalantly, “One more try?”
She was actually a little embarrassed, because every time she had shown weakness in the past, it had been through such means.
Especially a while ago, perhaps because of all she had been through, her gland had unexpectedly healed. It had become an even sharper weapon, a shame not to use.
This also proved, from another angle, that the two of them were the same.
In the time that Zhao Yujun had waited for Lu Ningyan in the country, the latter’s relationship history was also a complete blank, corroborating Lu Ningyan’s “mad words” from yesterday.
But if that was the case, why did these two have to be separated for so long? Why were neither of them willing to say a single word?
The problem had been there from the very beginning.
This kind of relationship, where passion was maintained by the body, was itself abnormal1.
Thus, Zhao Yujun, who had indulged Lu Ningyan for a day, finally raised her head at this moment and looked at the Omega across from her, as if seeing her for the first time.
The Alpha’s tone gradually calmed. “I heard that the project you’re in charge of next requires you to go abroad?”
During their time apart, she truly hadn’t actively sought out any information about the other, but with their shared past, any news about Lu Ningyan always managed to overcome all obstacles and eventually reach her ears.
A person can’t cover their ears forever. If so, one might as well open them. One has to hear it eventually.
Lu Ningyan raised an eyebrow. “That’s right.”
This minute difference, to her ears, seemed to hold a completely different meaning.
The Alpha still cares about me, which means…
Zhao Yujun took another sip through her straw. She was still drinking from her own cup. “How long will you be abroad, or rather, how do you plan to settle me?”
That last sentence was a bit sharp.
It was another way of asking, what lengths are you willing to go to for me? Or, to what extent do you need me to go for you?
“You can come with me,” Lu Ningyan said confidently.
With Zhao Yujun’s resources, flying all over the world was no issue.
“We can live together then, have a world of our own…”
Zhao Yujun looked up again at the person before her. Her exquisite features were so at odds with the scene before them, so familiar yet so foreign.
It was as if she were seeing her for the very first time.
If Lu Ningyan had said this to me at the very beginning, I probably would have been swept up in the heat of the moment and gone with her. But after breaking up and getting back together so many times, when things have reached this point…
Zhao Yujun wanted to ask.
Were you really drunk last night? Or was this just another trap set for me? Are you so certain that I will definitely take the bait?
Too confident.
Even her display of weakness carried the pride of a princess.
The face of her former lover was so close. In fact, strictly speaking, they had never explicitly broken up. They were still lovers.
Everything dissolved into a sense of release.
Zhao Yujun stood up and opened her arms.
Lu Ningyan was actually a little dazed, but she stood up as well, and Zhao Yujun gave her a hug.
It was warm, caring, and probably still held a bit of affection, but it felt more like the hug of a friend one has known for many years.
“Wishing you a smooth journey and a bright future.”
This time, they had truly separated.
On the day Lu Ningyan left, Zhao Yujun did not go to see her off, but she did receive a message from her.
【If, after a few years, neither of us has someone new by our side, then could we perhaps…】
Lu Ningyan was proud. Her few displays of weakness all seemed to be because of her, just like how she herself had once cast aside all dignity and everything else.
This was too pathetic.
Zhao Yujun didn’t like it, much less want it.
Not for herself, and not for her Xiao Yan.
—Move forward.
—Don’t be so fixated on the past anymore.
But after a moment of contemplation, the words she ultimately sent were—
【I don’t know.】
【As for the future, who can say for sure?】
A white contrail streaked across the sky.
The clear sky shone brightly.
Not a cloud in sight.
Today was another fine day.
The author has something to say:
When I was talking to my bestie today about the ending of this volume, she said that since there was no life-and-death separation, no new partners, and they still love each other, just aren’t together for the time being, and there’s even an open ending that preserves the possibility of them getting back together, she thinks it can be considered a HE… it left me speechless.
Anyway, this is where it ends. Judge for yourselves.
End of Full Text!
There’s so much I want to say, but now that it’s time to type, I don’t know where to start. So, I’ll just say thank you for your companionship along the way. If fate allows, we’ll meet again next time. Bye-bye, everyone~
LP: This book is now complete!
Thank you, everyone, for reading! I really, really enjoyed this book~ Though, there’s a very large room to improve the translation, I’ll make sure to re-translate it very well in the future!
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